Yesterday we met with a specialist about my infertility.

I was so anxious before the appointment that I felt shaky. I almost talked myself out of going because I was worried we would be told there's no hope for us. I didn't want to deal with the emotions that would follow hearing those words. A few months before J deployed a doctor told me that my chances of conceiving would be very low due to my hypothyroid disease.. I didn't want to go through that heartache (and depression) again. 

This time was different though. Different doctor. Different opinion. 

Doctor G took us into her office and quickly made us feel relaxed. She asked us a ton of questions and then discussed a game plan. She thinks my thyroid is not the problem.. she thinks I'm just not ovulating. So, we're going to try a few months of Clomid (starting next month) and go from there. 

J and I both feel like a huge weight has been lifted off our shoulders now that we know there's hope for us! We're both very excited and we're praying the Clomid will work. 

* Will you please join us in prayer that the Clomid will be successful and that I won't have any side effects from it? Thanks! :) 

Homecoming Pics

Phone call from J letting me know he landed!

Waiting for the bus doors to open up

He didn't see me at first & started to walk the wrong way
so I had to yell for him!

I waited 241 days for that hug!!

We thought the photographer left after taking this photo,
but after we got the CD we realized she was just being sneaky..

I still can't believe he's really home!!

Spilling The Beans

We're moving to..... Washington (state)! 

It wasn't our choice, but we're excited! 

HE IS HOME!!!!

J arrived home last night around 8:30 pm!!! I have been smiling ever since!! :) :) :)  I am soooo thankful & happy that my husband is FINALLY home from Afghanistan!!!!!!! 

P.S. ~ I will hopefully be able to post pictures of his homecoming soon.. I'm just waiting on the photographer to send me some



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Sleeping To Dream About You

He came home and surprised me.. I was sleeping and when I woke up he was there beside me.. smiling at me.. promising that he would never leave again..

Well.. that's what happened in my dream last night anyway.. *sigh* I woke up this morning praying that my dream was reality, but it wasn't. Needless to say I was bummed.. and it only made the emptiness in my heart ache even more..

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We're in the finals days of this horrible beast (aka, deployment) and I feel like everyone is expecting me to jump & down with joy as each day passes but I just can't. I am beyond excited (and very very anxious) that he is coming home, but he's not here yet.. he's still there.. in a war zone.. and I'm still here without him.. praying that he is safe and well. The harsh reality that anything could happen at any time has not left my mind.. and I won't be over the moon-jumping up & down excited or even able to breathe again until I see him walking off that bus towards me.. It's just how it's always been. Most people don't get it.. and honestly I don't think anyone will understand until you've actually been through it.. but I can't be the only mil spouse that feels this way right before a homecoming, right?

5K & A Wedding

Saturday was exhausting fun for me. I had to wake up around 5 AM to volunteer at a Miles for Fallen Heroes Charity [5K and 1 mile fun] Run. I'm glad I volunteered because it turned out to be a lot of fun! +We raised almost $2,000 for the Special Operations Warrior Foundation!! How awesome is that?!

Later that afternoon I attended my dad's wedding. It was held at a local yacht club.. the ceremony was outside on a deck overlooking the Gulf of Mexico.. it was beautiful and very sweet, but it was a little chilly and windy--which made my hair look a mess during & after the ceremony!

Me with my dad before the ceremony..

The beautiful bride coming down the stairs to meet her groom!

Saying their vows..
Oh! & the Maid of Honor (that you see to the left) is my new sister! :)

The reception was a blast!! My friend Anna was my date for the night since J couldn't be there, and I'm soooo thankful that she was willing and able to go with me! She saved me twice that night when two different people made rude comments to me (I'll talk about it later).. if she wouldn't have been there with me I honestly probably would have left early because I was so upset. +She actually got me on the dance floor--which is a huge shocker because I DO NOT DANCE! haha I'm still not sure how she managed to do it, but I'm glad she did because I had so much fun! 

I loved the cake! It was soo pretty and yummy!!


The only full length picture I have of my dress right now..



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