I breastfed Joel for 18 months and during that time I would always rock him to sleep while he nursed. Even though he no longer breastfeeds I have continued to rock him to sleep every night. It's just our thing. I rock him and pray and he holds my hand until he falls asleep, and then I put him in bed. I cherish that time at night because I know I won't be able to do it forever.

He has already grown so much that it has become much harder for me to lift him up over the side of the crib to lay him down.. So, we decided it was time to make the switch to a big boy bed. I was nervous about how he would do.. mostly because it took forever & a day for him to start sleeping through the night and I didn't want to ruin that. But thankfully we haven't had any issues. Every morning when he wakes up he runs straight down the hall to our room, swings open the door, and jumps into our bed with a huge smile on his face. It's one of those moments I wish I could record in my memory forever.

{I bought a pillow for him but he doesn't like it so it usually ends up on the ground at the foot of his bed.}

Nee-Nee!

After Joel was born he would cry and make a "nee-nee!" sound if he was hungry. We thought it was cute so we now refer to breastfeeding as Nee-Nee. When we see that he is hungry we will say "he wants the Nee-Nee."  :)

I have been exclusively breastfeeding giving Joel the Nee-Nee {on demand} since he was born. Before he was born I decided I would TRY to at least breastfeed until he was 6 months old. Well he is 4 months so his pediatrician recently suggested that we start giving him a bottle once a day so he can get use to it and to give myself a break. Well we have tried twice.. once yesterday and again today.. and both times he didn't want anything to do with it. And honestly.. I'm ok with it. I love the bonding time that breastfeeding has given me with him. He loves to hold my hand/fingers while he is nursing and it just melts my heart! :) I do feel a little bad though, because I can tell that J really wants to experience giving him a bottle. So I'm torn on what to do -- should I continue to give him just the Nee-Nee, or should I keep trying to see if he will warm up to the bottle?


&Truth be told, when I was pregnant I was totally creeped out by the whole breastfeeding thing. The idea of milk coming from ME was weird! Come on you know you probably thought/think it too! haha The first time he nursed it all felt so natural though, and I feel proud that I've been able to do it for as long as I have.